The Battle of Moving On- Two Months Later

Guilt does not come from God.

This is something I have to keep reminding myself over the past two months.

The guilt I’ve been battling thankfully doesn’t come from the coulda, shoulda, woulda’s, as we are well aware that those, can be a slippery slope.

The guilt I’ve been battling, is that of moving on. Moving on without her.

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  1. Mackenzie, I just stumbled across your beautiful blog and read your story on the family blog your linked. Words can’t even express how much my heart hurts for you. I cried reading your story, and I have already said several prayers for you and your family. God works in ways that you or I or anyone will ever understand, but I know He has a plan for you. And I know Zoe’s story has already touch so many people. Sometimes we need a reminder to hold our little ones just a little bit closer because we do take life for granted when it is never guaranteed. I’m so sorry you had to experience this tragedy so the rest of us could learn that lesson. As we get wrapped up in being the “perfect parents” with our need to strive for creating a beautiful home with magazine-worthy recipes, sometimes we need to take a step back and realize that it’s all about living for Him and simply loving those around us and that is enough. Sending you lots of hugs and I will continue praying for healing and understanding for you.

    • Mackenzie says:

      Thank you Lauren, your sweet words and prayers are an encouragement! I completely agree that it’s so easy to get caught up in what we call ‘life’ that we can forget what our real purpose here is.

  2. Sorry for my last comment…it posted before I was close to being done :( I came to your page looking up a learning activity I saw of yours on Pinterest….but then I saw this right away and my heart is breaking for you. I also lost my babygirl. I miss her so much every single day. Its been almost 7 yrs and not a day goes by where she isnt constantly on my mind. If you ever need to talk Im here please feel free to email me. God Bless you and your wonderful family.

  3. Hi, My name is Vanessa and I found your blog from searching for a copycat Chick-Fil- Tea recipe. I am so so sorry to hear about your baby! My husband and I had conjoined twin girls that lived for an hour after birth and it is so so hard to lose a child. I always say grief is a strange thing that no two people deal with the same then put Mommy guilt onto of that and you have yourself a hot mess. Praying for you and your family as God comforts y’all.

    Safe in the Arms of God is an amazing book and was such a huge comfort to us after we lost our girls.

    If you ever want to talk please feel free to email me and I will give you my contact information.

    Please know I am praying for you!


  4. I also wanted to give you the link o our blog if you wanted to see pictures of our girls or read their stories.

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